How to be depressed like a man!

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Fri, 13 Nov 2009 11:57:43 GMT

Does it mean anything if you dream of someone with scars on one side of their face and maimed arms? What if its also an extremely beautiful (to you) you member of the opposite sex and they give you nothing but sass?

I have really weird dreams...I wonder if this person is out there...

Hello LJ

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 22:25:17 GMT

Do you miss me???

orion

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 06:47:23 GMT

Since I was little and saw a rather bizarre episode of Muppet Babies I have been obsessed with the constellation Orion. It has been fun tonight to watch Orion move across the sky. As a kid I would eat breakfast at a neighbors and Orion would be in the morning sky above their house. I also find myself in empathy with Orion, what with loving something out of reach.

so look at the stars!!!

and if someone reads this...please find the muppet babies episode im talking about!

been a while...

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 02:57:01 GMT

I have not been on LJ recently since work finally blocked it. Life has been pretty good. My apt. cleaned up. I bought a nice new coat. I am trying to be social and not an ass at the same time. Sometimes I really miss some people. But you know, life moves on...I guess.
Watched "Where the Wild Things Are" last Friday and really enjoyed it. A kid movie for "non-grownups" like myself. I feel like those monsters sometimes. I think we all do.
Had a good time at Bats on Saturday. Funny, but I was almost content to spend the whole evening watching the fog-machine make ghosts in the green effects light. The combo of that night and the turn in the temperature really made it feel like Fall, and I was glad to feel that.

I can't really sleep right now.

Oh I picked up a Thoth Deck of Tarot cards. They are really beautiful.

Well...I will try to update as things actually happen

=D

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 21:30:09 GMT

It is finally over!!!

at long last...

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 12:12:30 GMT

...I better not get any crap at the DMV today

the force of my burning will!

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 15:22:34 GMT

I am on point today! I have been working at speeds not seen since I began to lose interest in my career here. I still have much to do this afternoon, but I think everything will be accomplished before "mini-vacation" which begins Wednesday.

The DMV better not give me any crap on Wednesday...

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 07:06:48 GMT

the only things that last forever are memories or sorrow...

woah

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 12:27:05 GMT

Over the years it has never ceased to amaze me how The Mamas and the Papas have so many weird sleazy stories, but this new one about Phillips and his daughter is just crazy!

In other news, due to some sort of loss in translation, half the Indian office now thinks I am some sort of martial arts champion. Anyone who actually knows me will find this really funny.

...

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 12:30:14 GMT

This whole two weeks of productivity two weeks of misery thing has got to stop. Its been going on for like a whole year now...

best beware...

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 12:44:08 GMT

... herr rat's sour yams

historical inaccuracies

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 17:01:46 GMT

Last night I dreamed that I was an American soldier hiding out in Nazi occupied Britain. Several women from the British resistance movement were hiding me under a bridge. I was busy trying to find the correct moment when I could dart from my cover at the bridge and run into some nearbye bushes, however the constant parade of Germans and the rediculous behavior of the resistance stopped me at every turn.

I woke up several times last night with the impression that something horrible was just out side my bedroom door. Usually this was given the form of the cat from Pet Sematary...

a few crazy thoughts...

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 12:20:02 GMT

I sometimes flirt with Libertarian ideas, but I don't think the average American (I include myself) is psychologically capable to deal with it. Can you imagine a world without public schools where I would have to actually pay out of pocket for my grandparent's health care?
Speaking of education most parents only care about education when their moron children fail a class and then they threaten the system till they let the kid pass. I do think we should put more accountability on the children, and not allow failures to move ahead.

There is no excuse for adult illiteracy in this country. This is the 21st century baby! If you can't read before your 8 then you need to be placed into some sort of program that involves menial labor for the government (such as picking up litter) and you shouldn't be allowed the privilege of reproduction...

Wow, I started talking about forced sterilization in only two paragraphs! I have not even finished my tea yet!

gettin' wacky

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 11:41:05 GMT

I bless Ra, the fierce sun burning bright
I bless Isis-Luna in the night
I bless the air, the Horus hawk
I bless the earth on which I walk

on the outside looking in...just like Randall Flagg

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 12:46:44 GMT

Sometimes I am shocked by my own capacity for bitterness...

updated 12:18= I think I might have just had a brief "kensho" moment...and I feel slightly happy...yet confused...

urge to kill rising...

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 14:02:25 GMT

I have pretty much accepted the fact, that I am probably going to end up assaulting my manager in the next few weeks when the Indian guy I am training goes back and everything goes to hell. I have taught all the processes I can to this dude, but there is no way that you can teach someone to be analytical.

The curse of the father falls on the son...

999

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 13:38:08 GMT

I feel like something interesting should happen today...

"the Dead Man soundtrack, but played on a theremin"

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 14:26:08 GMT

Things are getting domestic at "the pit of doom". Yes it smells like patchouli and man-stink, and there are probably enough magical-realism and occult books present to tear a hole through the universe, but at least it is liveable. I am notoriously lazy when it comes to home improvements, so it is good to have someone around to fix things up...

Its a three day weekend! Anyone doing anything? If no one comes to rescue me I will probably just sit around acting like a goon at Common Market in the evening. I really need to get back to Dostoyevsky, for some reason I just stopped reading "The Idiot" once I got about halfway through it...

My knees dont hurt so bad today, so afterwork I am going to do some stretching exercises

a lack of control

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 12:30:39 GMT

I have a problem. It is called gluttony. I might eat a large meal one day and it will set off a chain reaction, soon I begin to eat everything in sight.

Last night bolahead finally took me to Soul, which was very tasty. This morning I snuck out of the house early and made my way back to John's where I stuffed myself with sausage and eggs(dietary concerns have gone out the window). Tonight I am probably going out to eat with my Dad, so lunch will have to be a banana.

If I don't stop I am probably going to end up celebrating Drunch at The Penguin sometime soon...

My knee still hurts so I have not been able to run. How am I going to get the ladies to love cool j when I dont exercise?

ok now im going to cackle my way to the break room...

stupid joints

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 13:11:59 GMT

I just sat down at my desk and felt a stinging pain in my knee. I've also got some sort of weird pain in my right hip, so I am walking really funny this morning. The knee thing is the most concerning, if it continues into the weekend I am going to go to the doctor and see what is up. Perhaps years of goofy dancing and bad athletics have finally rendered me with the limp I always wanted...

bolahead and I hit John's Country Kitchen this morning for really big breakfasts and coffee, which was needed to wake us up from a night full of old G.I. Joe episodes and the 1995 classic "Friday".

I am really looking forward to the three day weekend. Of course I don't have any plans, and my knee is making me think I can't do anything really interesting. What if I spend the entire time in a bath tub?

but I want to hear the lamentation of the women too!!

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 12:59:28 GMT

I may have a calm exterior, but inside I am on a Conan the Barbarian kick. I was thinking it would be funny if you were to team up Conan with Aragorn from LOTR, since they are both destined to be kings...but in very different ways. Actually, I think it would be cool to see Conan just flat out deck Aragorn...

I think that was just the biggest fanboy moment ever in this journal...

Many thanks to cuddles for introducing me to The Ballad of G.I.Joe...

see these eyes so green, i could stare for a thousand years

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 12:51:57 GMT

Last night was yet another night of no real sleep. I would drift into near sleep and then get woken back up by something. Work is going to suck today. Some sadist brought in donuts so now I am going to go on a sugar frenzy...

While watching this Indian guy I am training do my work I have been absentmindedly doodeling on my calendar. Now it is covered with random sigils and runes and I don't really remember what any of them mean. Well...a couple of the more striking ones that seem to have been almost carved onto the page are quite meaningful.

This week has been a week of sloth. At least I cleaned up most of the apartment yesterday. I would almost be inclined to have company if I had more places to sit than my stinky couch...sadly most people don't like sitting on the floor like me.

I need to start hanging my "art:"

always at the lowest point

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 13:39:26 GMT

I was feeling really low and disgusting Sunday. Then Monday morning I began thinking up a theme for a possible fantasy novel, or perhaps series of novels. Originally I was thinking a lot about Bone, and then I began thinking of the childhood fantasy quest as the prelude to something much greater. It would be awesome to create something that takes people out of their comfort zone, and possibly influences teenagers in a way that their parents don't like. I don't want to give away my ideas so much, but I am more interested in the traumatic effects of a childhood quest on our hero as he fails to adjust to life in the "real world"....

Of course I am not really a writer. I just come up with ideas that never really go anywhere...

I saw "Inglourious Basterds" last night, which while very entertaining I just didn't find it consistently good. Some scenes were very tense and well done, while others just didn't seem to work...

I really love trailing off at the end of my statements...

a rare confession of ignorance

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 14:39:11 GMT

I studied history in college, but I know very little about France prior to Louis XIV, and not much about that even. This is why I enjoy talking to my dad about his time spent in south-western France near the Pyrenees and Basque country. After dinner at Dish last night I finally took my father over to Amelie's where I could tell he enjoyed himself. He told me how he used to like to walk down to the bakeries in town and get all sorts of good stuff. He ate a pear tart that looked really nice, while I consumed a chocolate eclair.

This weekend is probably going to be kinda quiet. I am getting up early tomorrow and going to dad's house to do some yard work for him under the hope that I will be compensated. I would also like to see either District 9 or Inglorious Basterds, but we will have to wait and find out what the weekend brings.

I watched a pretty good documentary on Joe Coleman last night called "RIP". It was really neat to see him work with his jewlers goggles and one hair brushes. Gave me some kinda goofy ideas about some things I would like to create some day. I had first really become aware of Coleman when I read a small piece by him in Disinformation's Book of Lies.

well hope everyone takes care of themselves..

not always what you think

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 13:00:51 GMT

I drifted off to sleep last night thinking about certain parts of Liber KKK. This had no relevance to my dreams. In my dreams I was writing The Wire fan-fiction, specifically the continuing adventures of Chris and Snoop. I really enjoyed watchinhg The Wire with my brother, and I got those "end of a series blues" when we watched the final episode and realized we wouldn't see those characters again.

I need to make some sort of blood oath to never eat Lupie's nachos again. Those things make me feel awful, but they taste so good!!! I ended up sleeping late this morning so I will work out after I get off work. This weekend I think my dad is going to pay me to do a bunch of yard work for him, so hopefully I will also get to take advantage of his laundry stuff. My gis smell fricken raunchy...

I realized yesterday that when I was younger I watched a lot of urban comedies and such. I really need to get ahold of a copy of Class Act, which will always be my favorite of the Kid' n Play movies. I also need a copy of Bebe's Kids...

This post really went all over the place...